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Interviewee: How are you feeling? |
| Reporter: Leave
me alone, please. |
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| - Interviewee:
This is part of your treatment. |
| Reporter: My
treatment? Really? Good. |
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| - Interviewee:
Yes the treatment, you know that. |
| Reporter: It
seems to be doing me a lot of good. You guys certainly
know about right and wrong. Thanks. |
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| - Interviewee:
Do you ever want to go back to work? |
| Reporter: Yes
I really want to go back to work. Find out some more
lies. Are you kidding me? Y-you moron? Go back to
work? You’ve spoken to me, you know what happened.
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| - Interviewee:
You had a break down. |
| Reporter: Yes
of course I had a break down, I got very scared. You
know what I saw. How the hell would that make you
feel? You patronising bigot. You think you can get
out of bed after you’ve seen that? |
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| - Interviewee:
We all saw it, on the television. You wrote the story.
Why does it make you so angry? |
| Reporter: Yeah,
you saw it on television. I saw it, there is a difference.
I saw him, you idiot. I didn’t do anything wrong
I-I-I didn’t hurt anyone. I am not mad. I am
not mad. |
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| - Interviewee:
Are you feeling any calmer? |
| Reporter: I
feel just great, thanks. |
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| - Interviewee:
You are full of hostility. Have you been sleeping? |
| Reporter: No,
not really. I don’t trust what is going to happen.
Wh-who’s paying you to do this? Why are you
doing this? |
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| - Interviewee:
It’s my job, answer the questions please. It’s
part of your treatment. How long have you worked at
this TV station for? |
| Reporter: Three
years and two years at a locale station in the south
before that. Look, there is nothing wrong with me.
Nothing at all. I am fine. Completely normal, I just
can’t forget about what I saw. About prison,
you know we’ve been over this several times
before. About the fact that the government is a lie,
how does that happen Mr state run flight deck doctor,
How does that work, tell me that and I’ll tell
you what’s wrong with me. You bastard, you liar,
you pathetic yes man. Answer me that! |
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| - Interviewee:
Do you think you need to be sedated? |
| Reporter: No!
I don’t need sedated; don’t threaten me
with that crap. You know that’s crap, that’s
your weapon isn’t it? Threaten the patient ‘till
they tell you what you want to hear? And you call
yourself a doctor? You’re a witch doctor for
a bunch of liars. How do you sleep at night? |
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| - Interviewee:
We’re not talking about me. Tell me about your
parents. |
| Reporter: My
parents? Screw my parents, my parents are dead and
that’s very sad but I ain’t here because
of that. You know that, I’m here because it’s
a lie, the police, the state, the mayor all of that
crap. It’s a lie and you know it and you still
do this. I don’t want to talk about this anymore.
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| - Interviewee:
Why not? |
| Reporter: Let
me see. Oh yeah, because you are using it to keep
me in here. Because we have been over it a thousand
times, because you know what I think about it. I can’t
go back to work, I don’t sleep anymore. I’m
locked up in a madhouse. My career is screwed. I will
have nightmares for the rest of my life. I used to
think I was a hard reporter, some real tough bitch
or something and now I’m scared of the dark.
And I didn’t do a thing wrong, not a thing.
What did I do wrong, to suffer this much? |
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| - Interviewee:
Life isn’t like that I’m afraid. Do you
not think you are improving? |
| Reporter: Can
I go home if I say yes? |
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Interviewee: Unfortunately, that’s not
my decision I can only make recommendation. Depending
upon your responses in sessions, you understand that
for years I’ve suggestions recommendations based
on whether I think you’re a risk to yourself
or to others, to society. |
| Reporter: Society?
What the hell is society? What is it? Play by the
rules. Let me tell you the rules, the rules are these.
I seen people kill people. Men, hack each other to
death so some rich asshole can film it. Is that society?
Is it? Is that who you are protecting from me? Look
at me. Look out from that clipboard, you bastard,
you dwarf, you awful little creep. Is that society?
Are the police, society? Is prison part of this wonderful
society? What about the mental health system? People
are released without anyone signing the forms but
somehow I ain’t one of them because no one wants
me for some film. Or at least they didn’t. Or
worse other people, their system, your society that
looked after them was protecting us from. Well it
didn’t protect me. |
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| - Interviewee:
Do you feel you are making any progress. |
| Reporter: No,
I don’t need to make any progress. I’m
not ill like that. I just saw a dead man. Yeah very
funny, I know, I saw a dead man and I’m not
ill but you know it is true. |
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| - Interviewee:
You where found walking the streets a couple weeks
after you filed that report. In tears, with a knife.
That sounds pretty ill to me. |
| Reporter: Yes,
I posted the story and then I couldn’t sleep.
I thought I could deal with things. You know, you
know this crap. Does it surprise you even I could
diagnose what is wrong with me post traumatic stress
of whatever the hell you call in. And let’s
be straight about it I, I did experience trauma. You
know not trauma like my cat died or I’m a fat
load or any that shit. I saw a man get killed, by
the state. A man get killed by the state with a priest
and prison guys and in the chair. I was behind the
glass. I saw him die and then I spoke to him, to Cash.
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| - Interviewee:
Did you? But no one else saw Cash or spoke to him. |
Reporter: So I’m
a liar now. Am I a liar? Wh-wh-what about the police?
What about the prison system? What about it? What
about Starkweather? You know that is true. I had a
known killer in my car, a guy I saw killed and I was
speaking to him, directed by him. And he was dead,
your friends the government? They killed him. How
are you supposed to move on? Or deal with, or express
your feelings or any of the crap about that? Huh?
How? Tell me, and I will do it.
Oh let me your help out of here you
little moron. You’ve been no help. You make
it all a lot worse. You know, he was dead, he was
executed, I saw it and he was in my car alive. I am
not a freaking wacko, you prick. You know I’m
not so why are you making me stay here? |
